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This Christmas season is a meaningful one, if you ask me. A lot of things happened, especially on the eve of the Big Day when our family was asked to light the Christmas candle (white one on the middle of the Advent Wreath), aside from another memorable experience that I’ll share below….
As the choir sang the Alleluia to honor the Holy Gospel, Father Bernard approached the Lector’s podium to read the Gospel reading. Before he spoke, he turned to the three of us beside him and whispered “Magsha-share kayo ha.” I didn’t get what he meant right away, so I asked ate Malou- my co-lector, “Anung share?”. She then answered that we might to give some personal reflection on the readings during the Homily, which same thing they did last year. I panicked. Why didn’t anyone tell me that it was gonna happen? Should have I known, I could have requested not to serve for the Christmas Eve mass! Haha!
Father Bernard then asked for the choir to sing ” Be Not Afraid” to prepare for the reflection. The song somewhat gave me the peace that I need to think of what to share about.
After the mass, family, friends and strangers came to me and said that they were touched by what I said during the 30 to 45 seconds sharing. But their kind words were more a like a ring of a bell for me; I thought: wow, I was able to inspire them in an unexpected time and way. The funny thing about it is I thought that I was not getting the message across while I was speaking, because all I can hear was my heart beating so fast and loud because of nervousness.
I only remember very few of the points I said: about God’s response to our dreams, about trusting that God fulfills His promises, and about the statement that someone recently told me.
What I shared is similar to below insights (Ha! Thanks to the luxury of time and space in this blog entry! elaborate, elaborate!).
Two weeks ago, I was having a heart-to-heart talk with God. Of course He was just listening and I was doing all the talking. I laid to Him all my fears, and aspirations- all in full details (He is that patient towards me, haha!). I said, “Lord, all my dreams seem to be impossible. But you are the God of the Impossibles, and you make things happen. That is why I know all these will be fulfilled in Your perfect time.”
True enough a week after that meditation, two (2) among the things that I asked, was given by God. Indeed, Miracles happen. hahaha! I thought: ” Si Lord, masyadong sineryoso ang mga sinabi ko. Action agad-agad?!”.
I was thinking, did I do something good that this Grace has be given to me? What about my mistakes, I’m sure God saw my mistakes; I’m sure He witnessed all the times that I failed Him. So why do I deserve all these?
I was contemplating about it for several days, until today. I realized that whatever I receive now, is brought to me NOT because of anything I have done. It is just that God is a loving God…He wants to see His children happy. So He gives His Grace freely, without judgement, without questions asked, even if we feel at times that we are not deserving recipients. I figured out that no matter how many times I have run away from Him in shame of my failures, He has ever been persistent and consistent in saying that there is nothing I can do that will take His Love away from me. And it is just up to me if I would open myself to receive Him and His blessings. Ang kulit nito ni Lord! Grabe! I have almost given up on a lot of things, but He did not give up on me. I may have failed Him but He never failed me.
And He just gave me HOPE. Answering to two of the impossible things I prayed for, signaled me that He is about to reveal His answer to the rest of the things I lifted to Him. I once read a book of my favorite author- Bo Sanchez, wherein he said: “God’s will is planted in your Dreams”. All those dreams and goals which I think are not only ambitious but also absurd, inconceivable and preposterous, will all come true because in His eyes, those are beautiful, holy and amazing dreams which He willed to happen after all.
“Come, follow Me… Be not Afraid”, the song sings. One special person recently told me, why should I worry about tomorrow when God is there to orchestrate His plans for us? And he has a good point. In the old testament, God promised that He will send the Messiah, which is fulfilled in the New Testament as Jesus was born to be our Savior. We do not need to worry or be afraid after all because God always fulfills His promises and unfolds His plans in the best time and manner.
On the times when I would lose myself to the trials and difficulties of life… or if things get vague, I would read this post or sing the above song, or simply call on to my Savior and let Him embrace me with His Love. I am sure that He will be there to remind me that He is the God of the Impossibles.
Oh…and MERRY CHRISTMAS! 🙂